.it's not over yet.

cried. whined. grumbled. cursed.



i am in the mid of my prelims. taking a break off mugging after the most mind-draining day today. it was pure MADNESS! econs and phys paper together. both totally unrelated topics and one requires a lot of memory work while the one requires logical and critical analysis. the first day was equally bad. i was sweating like shit while doing the chem paper. i was sitting right beside this huge block of wall with minimum wind movement. irritating! furthermore, i was nearly late for school on that morning too. double mishaps. i thought day II would be better but i was wrong. the math paper left me tip-toeing on the suicidal chair.



thinking back, we may felt regretful. i should have done this and not that. i should have focused more on this topic than the other. i should have managed my time better. i should have slept earlier the night before. there are so many 'should have' after leaving the examination hall but seriously what is the point of looking back and blaming ourselves for not performing to our best? if i have the capability to know everything at my finger tips and work expectionally well under pressure, time constraint and maybe harsh temperature, i will be a genius. =) who does not underperform when the environment is not to his or her advantage? who does not submit to stress? who does not give up trying? you are not alone, my friend. if you are feeling down, someone at another part of the world maybe feeling the same way at the same instant as you too. so, the message is you are never alone. =) let's stop pushing the blame to ourselves to save someone else at another part of the world from the blues.



what's most important now is to look ahead and not look back at the past. let everything end when we hear the phrase "put your pens down". do not bring it out, just leave it there. turn the negative feelings into motivation to strive even better for the next few papers to recoup the losses we have made. remember that we need to learn for the firms to pursuit self-interest. keep the hopes alive and continue to believe in ourselves. =)



i was passing by this senior citizen corner near one of the blocks and i start to wonder how i will spend my retirement age. am i thinking too far?

"keep the hopes alive"